Guess it's been a little over a month now since I've returned from Lesotho. Time has gone by quite quickly, but it definitely hasn't been the easiest month. As in my last blog entry, the emotions I have experienced since being back have been crazy. It feels like a whole year of emotion was just summed up in about a month. I don't think one day has gone by that I haven't thought at least once about the kids back at MIS - oh how I miss them so much!! 6 months there.. they became my life, my family.. and it hurts to be apart from them. But all things happen for a reason and if that is where God calls me back, then I'll be there. If not, then I have to accept that too. I had a wonderful conversation this afternoon with a lady from my church whom I used to teach sunday school with. She asked me questions about my trip and challenged me to think deeply about some of the things that I experienced there. I look back and can see how God not only used me, but changed me... Listening to my own words coming out of my mouth made me realize how much I really did change and how much God worked in my heart - teaching me patience, gratitude, how to love unconditionally, maturing me.. but most of all he taught me how to trust Him in everything. In North America, we get so caught up by things in this world that we don't have time for God. Then difficult situations come along and we just can't seem to trust God, we feel like he has left us. In reality... WE are the ones that have left him. We need to learn to trust God in every aspect of our lives, whether things are going great or not so great. If we can learn to trust God in the simple realities, then we can learn to trust God in the difficult times. Anyways, God's just really shown me a lot.. about life and also about myself. I guess I was just reminded of these things today while talking to this lady. It's funny how God randomly brings these people into our lives. She was my extra dose of encouragement I needed today and she got the passion in my heart stirring! I'll admit the first while being back it's hard not to feel useless considering everything I had been doing recently in Lesotho. But I know that I am where I am for a reason. As long as I am following Christ and 'TRUSTING' Him, He will use me where he wants to use me. I've committed to serving my wednesday nights now in junior youth at our church and I'm excited to have fun and build relationships with the kids! As for a day to day life for me.. I'm back working at Trinidad - the same office I worked at prior to Africa. I'm also working a second job at the Ten Pin Bowling Alley which I worked at last fall as well. I'm enjoying my jobs and am thankful that I am blessed enough to have work. I guess thats all I got for tonight!
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