My life now

Well things have changed. I was able to have a long talk with an instructor/councellor a week and half ago about my career decisions, it was great to talk to somebody and really weigh out all my options and feelings. Long story short, I have decided not to go into the field of Social Work and I am truly happy about my decision. I really wasn't feeling like I wanted to take that on as a "career". I love to help people and be an encouragment in people's lives, but I'm not ready at this point (or ever really) to take on intense situations that Social Workers deal with on a day to day basis. To be honest I feel I was really blinded (more or less not really researching enough) to what Social Workers actually delt with continually. I know I want to continue to help people, but as for career-wise, I've just taken a step back to explore other routes and really discover myself and what I want before fully imersing myself into something so quickly. I'm back in GP and just started a job at Benjamin Moore which I am actually really excited about :) I take this all in as a learning experience as I definitely know it was!! It's made me challenge myself more and really think seriously about my decisions. I feel I've learnt more about myself and have been able to set some small goals to work towards in the time being. Thanks for praying for me. Until Next time!

*Remember to smile, it always looks better on you* :)
(words from someone special)

Mixed Emotions..

I haven't had this tough of a time with my life decisions in a long time.. maybe ever. I feel confused, scared, and so unsure.. I've hit a pretty big fork in the road this past week. So many things going through my head right now. I really don't know if this is where i want to be anymore, if this is the path i want to take at this point in my life. To be completely honest i don't want to be here at all, this should be a happy time shouldn't it? Why do I hate it so much? I don't even know if i really want to be a social worker anymore. I know I like to help people, but I'm not so sure if its what I want to do as a life career. I hate making decisions like this when i know its completely my choice. Cuz my choice right now would to NOT be here, but i did choose to be here.. I feel sad and sick to my stomach.