"What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us" - Walt Emerson

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Busy busy busy

Busy busy busy..
Nope, life hasn't slowed down much here. In fact, things at MIS seem to be a lot busier lately. Doing all the doctor/hospital visits, I am often at the center early in the morning (forsure by 6:30am) and gone all day. The days are long and exhausting. And often once I am back at the center by afternoon, I am wanted here or there so I am constantly on the go. We have a new volunteer who started towards the end of last week. She's doing alright. She's young and never done anything with kids or away from home before so it may take a little while, but eventually she'll get the hang of things. We are having more issues with a young mother who is still at the center.. oh its so difficult. Last friday, i was told she was looking for me, and when i found her she was crying so much I hardly knew what to say.. I don't think I've ever seen someone here cry as much as she was. She was hurt and upset and saying many negative things about herself.. it was hard for me to hear. She talked about how she wanted to just kill herself and wishes she was never born. She was super upset.. I was constantly praying for wisdom as I did not expect any of this. Not to mention she's 5 months pregnet so poor girl has got crazy emotions right now as it is. I tried mt best to encourage her and keep her positive. I prayed with her for quite a while and talked about different possible solutions to her problems and I that calmed her down quite a bit. She was still pretty distraught though. She is not necessarily "wanted" at the center, plus she doesnt have immediate family she can go to. She is going through soo much for being a 19 year old girl with a 18 month old, and another one on the way. Anyways we are trying to figure things out with social welfare - please pray that we can find a good place for her where she can be positive and care for her children. It's pretty stressful. On a happy note about this young girl, THIS WEEK I got the opportunity to share Christ with her! Did I expect that to happen? No, not at all. To be honest - I thought being in a country where God seems to be in everything, that she would know everything. How blind was I?! Anyways, we had to walk to social welfare on monday, and for some reason i felt something inside pushing me to talk to her about God. Of course I kept telling myself "no, i dont want to. im scared, i dont know what i would say." But then i was reminded "I'll give you the words to say".. so i listened to this and i now know that it was obviously the holy spirit telling me to do so. I asked her if she knew what it meant to be a christian, she said no. I asked her if she believed in God, she said yes. I asked her if she knew who Jesus was and what he did for her, she said no. Right there, OPPORTUNITY screamed out at me. I knew then that there was no turning back, God has placed me there at this time to share Christ. So I did. I dont even think I can remember everything i said, because I know God was speaking through me. Because I chose to obey him, he used me. I guess sometimes we think its much more difficult than it really is. We are not doing anything on our own, as long as we trust him and allow him to use us, he will. I am confident that God got through to this young womans heart and that I will one day see her again in heaven, which gives me great joy in my heart:) She was very interested and so happy to hear about the story of Christ - I just can't believe she never knew... She told me she wanted to have Jesus in her heart and that she would pray and ask him. Oh what a happiness I felt that day and still feel. To be honest I have never really taken that kind of opportunity to share the gospel with someone besides young children. I will continue to pray for this young woman and hope that she will hold Jesus dear to her heart:) Anyways, there's my highlight for you! This week, I've also done a hospital visit with the new baby - had to get a chest x-ray. Tomorrow I head off to the Baylor Clinic again with her to go over the results. I will also take another toddler (Kabalo) to get tested tomorrow. Busy day again as usual. Only 10 days till I see my mommy, Yaaaaaaaaaa:-) We are really looking forward to their visit, although that means its getting closer to the time that we have to say good-bye... I'm starting to wonder if I'm ready for it. Going to feel empty without all our kids.. But anyways, thats about all I got for an update now! Please keep us in your prayers.
God Bless, *HUGS*
Love Michelle

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Wow! that is so awesome Michelle, I'm so proud of you!! I feel so sad for that young girl, that must be so hard for her, so young and to have two kids and be so unsure of your future!
Ellen