"What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us" - Walt Emerson

Sunday, August 17, 2008

3 wks back home already

I've been back home in Canada for about 3 weeks now. What a different world here than Lesotho... At times I feel like I've gotten right back into things, and yet I still feel like I'm adjusting - to ppl, culture, work, time and life here in general. Its difficult to explain to people around me how I'm really feeling. I've probably heard the question "How was it?" at least 50 times since I've been back. It's so hard to try and capture all that I've been through and experienced in the past 6 months that all I eventually end up saying is .. "It was good". I'm not exactly sure how to respond anymore as I'm full of mixed emotions and not sure where life will take me next. Transitioning seems to be an on-going process and I'm not really sure where home is anymore. I feel like I'm a different person now than when I left. It's almost as if I don't really have dreams or goals anymore.. wait.. maybe I still have dreams and goals.. I think they've may have just shifted in another direction. What I wanted 6 months ago doesn't seem so important anymore... So what is important then? Maybe I don't really know.. but I can say that I know WHO is important or what really matters in life. Why are we here? We have a purpose on earth far greater than we can see right now. God's given us purpose. He didn't create us for a thrill or just for kicks.. everything He created serves a purpose. I know God's got a dream for me, even if I don't quite know or understand it yet.. its there! So even though it's tough adjusting and getting back into the "easy life", I know that God has me here right where I am for a reason.. a purpose.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Dear Michelle,

What a blessing to stumble across your blog! I have loved reading about your adventures. I often wonder what my old youth groupies are up to! I am so impressed that you are choosing to follow after God's leading. May He richly bless you for your faithful service.

Love, Haley Radke (Wolfe)