"What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us" - Walt Emerson

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Unending Decisions..

It seems as though each time I finally make one decision in my life.. another presents itself. Is this some kind of unending process I should have known about?? I'm not even kidding, I feel I've been overwhelmed with decisions to make this past year or two! Being on my own and indpendent definitely brings in a lot more opportunity in differerent areas, which means MORE DECISIONS!! Sometimes I just wish God would put a bilboard in front of me telling me exactly which way I need to go and maybe even throw a road map in the deal! Too bad that's not quite how God works :)

Here it goes.. Is school an option for me? At one point I seriously thought I would never go back to school, but lately it keeps jumping out at me. Honestly.. it scares me a little to think I might want to go back to school, its been way too long. I dont even know how the classroom/homework thing works anymore!! haha. But its almost like everytime I think about what I want to do with my life I hear the word school. I mean, it would only make sense considering most of what I would like to do with my life would mean getting a diploma or a degree. Why does school scare me so much? I guess I'm just so used to the 'working' life that it would take some adjusting. Not to mention, if I decided (there's that word again!) to go to college or university, it would most likely mean 'moving' again! ANOTHER 'decision'.

Being a follower of Christ, I know that I want to pursue what God has for me - I want His will to be my will. And so that means praying and working towards possible opportunities (such as school) and letting God be in control. All the meanwhile, trusting that He knows what He's doing - afterall, He DID design me.. All my passions and dreams come from Him. Right?

Feel free to leave me any of your comments or thoughts on school!

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