Extreme Emotion

How do I even begin to describe my deepest feelings, the emotion that goes on inside of me? It's as though I'm bursting with feelings that shoot in every direction. It's complete commotion inside of me, and I'm not sure I know how to handle it.. What do you do in this state? A state where you can hardly even think or make rational decisions, because your emotion has taken over and you can't even rest your mind.. a state where you can't understand yourself anymore.. A state where you just want to scream and cry in hopes that all these emotions will just dissipate.. Have you felt like this before?? I don't really know whats going on in side of me right now, but i can be honest by saying its painful.. how do i fix it? I know there's only one way and only one who can give me the peace that I am longing for, but why am i being so stubborn??! It's like I don't even want to go there, even though I know he can carry me through.. with him everything is lighter.. I need to stop being so stubborn and trust him, because i know he's got a plan through everything, even if i don't like where the plan seems to be going at the time.. So all these emotions, what are they? Why do we have to 'feel' things? Because HE feels things, He has emotions far greater than we could ever know and experience.. emotion came from Him. Our hearts are just so delicate towards emotions.. I think I need to take time in the day to breathe and really experience the emotion of God, the biggest one being His love for me (for all of us). Sometimes I think I forget.. God rejoices with us and cries with us.. and i know that one day he will wipe every tear from our eye and an inconceivable joy will exceed in our hearts..

"Dear God, thank-you for the gift of emotion.. that I am able to feel.. even if that includes pain and hurt, because I know that 'in you' joy will always follow."